Wednesday, July 15, 2015

Responses (Memoir)

What if one is holy, should she endure mistreatment?
Better yet, what if one is unholy, should she mistreat
others? In the case of holiness, the answer is, no. In
the latter case, the answer is, maybe. One that strives
for holiness is offended by unholiness. In this
instance, holiness is defined by a need to abide by a
set understanding of right behavior. In the latter case,
unholiness is defined as one that abides by whimsical
behavior, where others are often harmed. What if a
holy woman is made subject to harm, where response
is followed by evasiveness? One might say, “Remove
self from the situation.” What if this is not possible,
for undisclosed reasons? In this case, to break apart
would further complicate the matter; where the only
option is to engage in a verbal labyrinth. In the case of
the unholy woman, a verbal labyrinth leads to recrimination,
even a need to lash out. This in turn compounds the problem.
One is then titled by a group of adjectives. It is by chance
to say which would fare better. The unholy woman
might say, “To hell with consequences,” and get lost in
a trail of madness, which prevents closure; while the
holy woman might find a tolerable position, free of a netted
trail. Temperament has yet to be discussed. For a holy
woman to behave as unholy might compromise values;
but in some cases one might suggest stepping out of 
self. Where acting as a holy woman would grieve a
whimsical unholy woman. Both desire justice, where
one gives it in return, while the other takes it for granted.
Nevertheless, if one has not known peace, peace might
seem intolerable; where, for one that knows peace, other
than peace, is quite challenging. 


Whimsical is used here to refer to a thought process that
is not structured according to a consensus of what 
constitutes as right vs. wrong behavior. 

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