I grapple with silence as exchanged for
loudness while father sinned so deeply—those dear pains those purest insanities
where fire hits like rage—our curse our generational abandonment where many
have seen justice. by baffled observer or irritability at a low point in development.
a scribbled heartbeat, an odic explanation some thunder shot as time was
closing. I watch sunset while disbelieving—someone we shore with: those
deserving welts such funerals in passion, such an elegy for survival. torn
disbelief. gritting teeth. so much gnashing at tender walls. those cuts in egos
those bruises in spirits while sacrificed for bread crumbs; not a decent
apology, not a sign of regret, or more anger for an acquisition was accurate.
the flowers are observing they drain anxieties a man in his mother’s garden; so
flippant inside, such contempt inside, while saying, “Yes Dear!” the future in
its beliefs those skies unveiling or morning sun-dust occupying our universe.
but a pantomime ghost but a surviving lover or such remorse those days it meant
so much. eyes to a problem, where it had to exist, a person disgusted by
another’s fortune. it reigns as true, so closed off, a person becomes
hungry—for debt or damage or hell inside; the root of its forest those aches in
its woods or reverberation in our concrete. a foolish existence so secure it
hurts while one is softer on ambition—the fret of the bobcat the temple of the
jaguar or sudden into a dragon’s mouth. to have lived in deceit to have given
deceit where one questions their fabrication—that life in its riches those
things we accumulate or such artificial reliance. as needing something inhuman
something too critical—where participants are accountable for insanities. so
much a jackknife or a jackal or a jingle; so much a padlock or a truer
dimension or pangs like giving birth—the fury we undergo the underground we dig
while soil coughs up ghosts. by reluctance to be as if that person in dreams
where too much wealth spears hopes—for lusts prowl as if inside a cathedral
such a firm need for impactive adoration.
