Saturday, December 5, 2020

Armchair Loneliness: Time Just Vomited

 

upon an armchair such mental fire to have resisted its menticide. so versed in ghettoes so affronted in Hills while most act so bourgeois. I’d lie to me where it didn’t stick—I would argue with me! so much so foxy, a bad ass machine—those eyes flippant those hips discouraging where a man has much to ill-temper. too refined for Sunday too academic for religiosity or too sad to have out-thought Divinity. so much to hold a vice, so shapely in alphabets, a soul becomes its purpose. a bong tipped over, crystals were grinded, a woman took a trip; so fair an alley so many settees in a field or a rat nibbling wires. a kung fu woman, a taekwondo fever, while tipsy a curse crying into palms. so tattered, so polished by life, inside is hell to abuse. a mind-stain a relaxed disposition while trembling at its core. too groundless to hold-on, too unbridled to remain faithful, while one desires a family.     by faculties, by modalities, so angered—by the way she loves me; so phrenic into a daze sure sacrifice into blackness. a Black Japanese, a Black Vietnamese, where different becomes its aphrodisiac. to fly flames as birthed by curry some outlandish normality; so much a copy so low at its totem while a woman is claiming her identity.

            Love was a prompt such rubescent cries where a man might adore in spite; so dangerous such a book hound while dissecting seduction. but a gnat in me but glory in science to approve of losing greatly; my next of kin, my soul, we drove all night spirit. in deep panic such sirens blaring, we slept in a sewer. (too tactile too alert too damn gorgeous.) by instincts by emotions where reality suggests a good life for some; at geese or a goose while fire is set to the golden egg.

            almighty stimuli almighty nausea or such a cliff with particular faces; so causeless pain, such radiant joy, while it slips into pure thunder. a woman so cool, a man a straight delirium as cut to grit his minds in bowls. concomitant frustration or a psych too much the royal gates, while time vomited.   

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