Monday, March 29, 2021

Participating In Alienation

 

we examine at length those trials that made existence. a flying fret of feelings or some grain mill so garnished as fit for awkward. too much passivity. we search for middle ground. where most are raised to exert self … despite, trampling or hooves tearing goads to explosions fighting for freedom. most might own others so hectic its hut its haven … an odd word, but measure indoctrination, where it hurts but one can’t fight back … such training in horrors while abused it feels normal insomuch as, a daughter and mother. or intense auras, a house in weaving, where aggression is made consensus.

            like a rook a man is pushed like a pawn a man is sacrificed.

            our ladies are at wage wars or running companies, while receiving alienation.

            our poets are struggling. walls are communicative. wires are epidemic.

            as creatures straying into nights or failures determining worth, or a father late to participate. jute to bind us or glass to define us to pages to rewrite us. hymns for slavery or tiles for redecoration or festoons for holidays. if but to decode lights if but to reopen doors if but to try at it one more time. such dear unforgiveness … for a soul hurts her heart … a jinni in summer!

            keen eyes so aloof for reality is dreadful.

            social dynamics or coarse persons while stripping you is better than accepting you. so skeptical, or pessimistic, or cynical – all of which are philosophies.

            I once sat in a mall. I was so inordinate. a nice word for incapacitated. a woman was trying, but I couldn’t avoid it, I didn’t permit my hand. such gray horizons, a soul at your arc, or rights given through indoctrination. those trials we adventure those pains we garner as creatures trying to escape weaknesses. to have ideals to leap to defenses while defending self is illegal.

            surefire agony or anguish or estranged from our bulwark. to love as needing in some critique, total protection. but ruined enough, to find hope, while sabotaging our empire.

            such innocent/coquettish beginnings. or famished familiarity. over many tears!       

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