Friday, March 20, 2020

We Seldom Discern What Happened


I have laughed at self for some idea while harboring pagan ideals; the glitter in innocence or the fatality in familiarity or something demanding freedom; to have thrived for you to have created answers for you while one was in harm’s path; but nothing is so sacred as something relying on you
something breathing for you.

I am preoccupied by this ribbon presumed as love.

…to hold tightly to mate or match while I used to wonder; indeed, if life is insincere, and motives are always plural, would one be able to decipher love…?

Familiarity breeds both comfort and discontent!

…the rosebuds are hilarious the sugarberries are delicious and one adored has never sustained such courage; those carefree skies our terms in feathers our wings flapping sorrow….

we often make rules in order to love while we need our nucleus.

it becomes so familiar. We readjust at every step. We become prayer-like.

so much gravel while such feelings as to become too logical; the river of lilacs this course in social studies or this ocean negotiating out remedies.

by seam or stitch by cloth or needle if but to resist excitement; such pleasurable nets to arrive sensing danger but moved into its room; our trusts so loud while one is sick where one over-there receives the penalty; our lakes by baptism our swords refurbished while one needed me to know; such deep disdain where one hates your being, simplistically for those treasures; to take pride in assassination to laugh like miracles are false if but to hope by demons we fail.

often we see people, we know their guts and we treat them with reverence; such a shift, to know some reality, or so compelled one risks an argument; but one is frank another is curt where now we have a reason to talk; in truth, while re-lacing our boots, a mere hi and by is more than enough; for some are dangerous, they have no respect for boundaries, where they look forward to a negative anything: they despise existence, they dance with venom, plus, they often win.

so much to letting go, this hard emerald this uncomfortable essence.

one would feel proud, while we watch, where one would appreciate some good laughter; this reason to stay perfect this frightening reality where it only takes some misfires.

One might argue for truth. One might appeal to this vague creature. Where one is too delicate to admit where most instincts reside; those serious feelings those deep emotions while it requires so much; where folks watch, eyes speak, while many are tucked tightly in their quarters: those boxes locked, those spirits addressed, while many are too inexperienced to navigate.

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