Friday, March 6, 2020

Bucolic Nightmare


I would need you or knead insecurities while bleeding blood clots; those seconds by curiosity or chaos repentance our speech our features while it was revealed; the central point was invisible but it made its hammock; such deep deception such dear drama where life is debt and determination.                   Our women our drenched politicians, while probed by unlikely realities; this fitted noun as embodied or oily where flying has become a curse; as is our minds               this pleat in windows              this angst or anxiety—so liquid            where essence is kneeling       so furious a blessing;              to undress a glance      or to receive too much   while doors are opening; such a real man      this Rake so faceless   while under nuclei devastation. Or a decorated travesty at closed ceilings where Love has lost flesh.

—fierce tyranny eyes, a glimmer as ankh, reading Shel Silverstein. I peak inside, a sudden inclination, while features burst free. So paranormal. Such radiant skin. Or an aura secluded in public. The higher dragon. The selfless snake. Plus, a pentagram. Pure cosmic fire, to drop in an instance where one is prone to wander—this creek of frogs those lemurs involved or a newborn monkey; such astrological karma, or to enter Love, while disgusted by Love; mental e. e. Cummings, or psychic delusion, so deeply unimpressed. Our Jupiter leaps, as mis-bred Cretans, or so dearly in-love pain has become normal; this fire for Simone or those hats we parade while to know the core person is irreversible; tiger stones or Neptune or depletion—       our riveting egos         while I must see them         but                    seeing self is alienation;          this frowning ostrich                      this vigil kangaroo                  while adoring something in its distinction;              those distinguished few                         those sophisticated but human realists; to become our Kalahari                       or to adore the blue whale      into jaguar beauty            or leopard instincts or fire.

The jackals are silent              the zebras are studying           and the soul is filled with rhinos—this hybrid international, this film in dominoes, or rehearsing his childhood mother; to

come to you, thrashed or unsighted, and seated to feel those emotions;        these secrets we veil, or sporadic keenness, such nomadic grasshoppers;                       but a smile that way or literature this way                  while it was thought in private;        those fluttering feathers                      those golden catfishes             or wheel-spiders becoming lawyers;                 so exiled to disease, so intricate our pursuits, while sentience stands in a sand-river;       those scorpions           or those landscapes     while so clouded it became easy; our familiar selves               even demented balance                       or angry enough to make it work;       those lava eyes this melding pot     while dying became normal.                 

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