Sunday, March 15, 2020

So Many Watched as Silent Witnesses


…we appear by shadows, tussling with perceptions, while spring is most deadly; this funeral in me this alpha so short or by omega to see clearly; so accustomed to self-deprecation this fire to exceed while so petrified by mortality; this edge as maze this cave as solitude or this walk an inch by graves; those magenta skies or chipmunks so content while life is miracles and suffering; to imagine our satire where one is so cold
while coldness haunts its creator. This flame day this core essence where universality tugs at concentration;
our battled ingenuity our anchor so close or to become so honest by concrete; those roads those maps those alienated departures; this want for passion or understanding at something perceived as irreversible; (those days they plotted this underscore this underpinning to confess my part where most are beyond reproach and so dedicated to lying forever; this breed of creatures, this wave with Jesus on high, while so desperately disgusting)….

it was spite or absence where one is mad because they were decoded;
it wasn’t prudence it was so uncertain while
it prided deception.
pain was sugar, the gut was
under-siege, the person looked horrible!
we would work the project, as to
give it life, while it reneged on loyalty. it felt powerful, it could not resist, others were starting to notice it.  

…we observe human traits
as creatures trying harder
where
unreality is always present; one explains physics, another is absent, where false conjectures are refuted;
those things we say, or the silence we gnaw, where one is never aware of those labels….

I do this often. I find a flow—and a negative memory pops us….

I imagine we laugh harder.
I can’t ignore our differences.
I see such this disdain we have for one another.
This need for submission—while I assert—no one cares too greatly.
A person is a passing thought or
probed in memories
but it isn’t that significant.
We plant a label, protect ourselves, and get to something new.

Indeed, affections by hearts reign differently.  

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