Sunday, March 29, 2020

Just Indoctrinated


I paint with feelings                becoming lethargic                  or revved by webs.
I saw a photo. I wandered nearby. The image returned.
Love is esoteric. Love is terrific phantoms. I wonder if he sees her: by driven eulogies, rehearsing last rites, a beacon to the community.

It hurts to introspect                while spirit is endearing                        where a daughter might drop a feeling; such effulgent indecision or inverted understanding where we must blame ourselves; but pops is watching and madam is surfing while granny is                       pitching a few quarters.

Those ambiguous emotions                this quadroon machine                        while reading into physics; by mental mountains or to see a crutch where something alienates while slowing pace.

The art is ambrosia the essence is unique but most siblings should feel proud.

We disabuse as we must                     for an infant just died                 we must grip life to feel her heart beating; this dearth of concern this virus sent to us or radical assessments those wires and roses.                         To have a little panic or to adore this life where the need is tremendous: such a ruthless condition         such air or volume                  where we appreciate something honest.

By shreds of angst                  by deep yellow violets or                    by pure contradiction; to have desired more where behavior is scrambled to find us running up the highways: but a sparkle but something we understand where a soul gives his entire flame.

—we entered the graveyard
a spirit was tippy-toeing, a ghost was inquisitive; the gate closed, a casket floated, beneath it were names;
a witch counted twigs, the essence, the ousia, was hunting;
I read the headstone…

guts were instinctive the movie was on record those eyes were forgiving; daughters played double-Dutch, young adolescents played jumping-jacks, where elders were drinking firewater—

we seem undone where the boiler is icicles yet our interior is so awake; by currents some seconds by religiosity for children where some were just baptized.

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