Friday, December 13, 2019

It Never Lived as a Viable Piano


I call this living so aggravated with life or pretending the war isn’t internal; those primrose sentiments those Atlantis parachutes while nonetheless sinking into ocean sand;

as merely a fledgling so engrossed in cocaine while mother sought serenity; this room so conspicuous such pain in every eye while a child takes too much as normal; this wrenching conflict when faced by appearing-beauty a man feeling incomplete; but days are ladybugs and magnifying-glasses and a book of sutras.

So, longing was hiding, or unshared, sunk into splendor; those minerals for ghettoes, those teachers crawling through, our innocence seeming simplistic; as traveled those years weeping for my homeland engaged in societal calligraphy—

such rapid dishonesties at deeper sincerity even when nonsense stood clearly under a microscope;

but women were different they stressed proprieties they desired real power;

such pure inhibitions this world with varied values and so vexed by indifference.

Those soothing sounds our Tibetan music while building bridges; even now a slight mistake to feel one has arrived with the right woman;

our justices seem different our legacies seem dependent or our guts carry various concerns; as creatures disgusted by something we exulted where one becomes affected, nonetheless; or back at home listening to argumentation and realizing so much is missing;

an inner nightstand for an interior nightlight where night is not symbolic; those dark havens those darker screams while darkness seemed so apropos;
    
but a man silenced to dice at so many determinations as an aria ascended and left its shame—
those agitated bibles this Old Law while professed in something no man can claim; our sweeter poisons our swivet fortunes while Love looked such clean-filthiness;

this war upon senses these angry aggregates so ashamed to call religion a conglomerate;

as tried in studies and quickly admonished for religion is based in community; those inmost formless thoughts our fresco walls or our years connecting those dots we ignore;

such pagan indebtedness such partial hermeneutics while spirit is overdue for an exegesis;
so privy to outsoar, but a woman quite nervous, hither, to have is to hold for dear life; where love is crucial while love is critical for oases seem this color; our unspoken farewell our lost passion so clear those intimacies never existed.

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