Friday, June 12, 2020

Cognitive Ghosts


the idol or bread pie the goose fleeing—the golden egg or so much pride as death tasted so sweet. substance abuse or freedom at ranges so cursed it was beautiful. if to give what nauseates so expectant of different results while angered for ostracized. our personal frustration our head-throbbing angst where a soul feels so embarrassed: an adolescent ego, so cuffed feeling neat, such thunder where the complex breeds. so uncured, such deep dark molasses, the syrup dripping into cloudiness; or fitness so adored while one despises the behavior. as never to change, where one is forced, while to love me, is to validate me, or damned to hell! (I can’t see but pieces, of that inner woman, while so befogged by the addict.) such was electrical in days passing so charged by interruption. to hate something, while finding pleasure, to realize something sick in self. an assignment in humans, as required by humans, where two fret like dungy humans: the rose in heaven as it never could die but the weather is hectic or abrasive; those pieces in me the hallway those doors where fragments resurrected. such irritability such shifting or to have indicative sunshine. such a dear soul, to family or friends, while I reject the first three premises. such deduction, so thwarted at seconds, while a default person is trailing vines. so devastated so cursed while gods are listening. so much growth to dislike the teacher where one is compelled to watch: the movies screaming those voices screeching into some sky shiver: our abandoned aches our treasured insanity while something is so dedicated. the dying conformist the murdered insurrectionist a man is between multiple deaths. but Anger is moving she dies while living she pops a pill and aids a dozen souls: the sudden flinch those pinching muscles or so consumed the anger is secondary: a man running while seeing detriments as to relive a ten-year-old addict: at valleys in cities or countries in anguish while behaviors are etched in cement. so refused such hated loneliness or such adored elements by cognitive shadows.

sore frustration into a dynasty if he loves it, I’ll overload him—those blue tendencies the fragrance of arrogance such screaming that need for worship. so low or high or balanced the freedom of terrors. so silent it disrupts such contingencies in most where many desire conformations. to force one into a space, to beat like crazy, and if one roars to hit him with an antisocial label. to demand trust while holding a pistol if but to convince the steel wall. such ghosts into alleys while ghetto memories followed unto the suburbs: the aggression those vicious proclivities or plain determined by ignorance. so much about never, so telic for self, the dell the angst or those conversations; at minimal benefits, so dependent upon reception, while a man might praise his self. the gray shivers those bold appetites so tendentious or uncouth while freedom has been luxury. (we come to something gray, as dependent upon reputation, but ill-repute vitiates a positive appraisal: innocence is self-perceived, diligence is a byproduct, where one is taught premeditation.) the face is looked at, the hands are examined, such contradiction becomes subtle agitation or plain anger. we are made to fit hypotheses, or determined as liars, while true change is met with fury: they need the old one, the new one demands presence, while it taints presuppositions. such an enterprise or blue haven lies while intimacy means, I can manipulate the object. mother prided people, so adoringly, while needing approval. such a human instinct. such raw elation or disappointment. but something stresses it, the over-experiential person. to have his truth, in speculative vices, or to conclude the pain of deceptive control. to have lost much, or to have died often, one would expect him to shut up and play the game. indeed, I’ll be labeled, but never with accuracy, while associated with but a few determinants.         

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