Saturday, July 4, 2020

I Learned The Damn Musical


the genus is entitled but broken guts to bleed like Jesus—a fret so furious to imagine while praising the Jews; mommy laughing or father stern at terror those eyes a woman, it couldn’t exist! gooseberry sin or wildberry poison or wolfberries for vomit or sickly the dice so wild while I’m getting close! such gravidity such burden while a blackman must apologize: for pictures for women

for dying where it becomes universal sadness. (I have loved white literature, I have exposed my screams, I feel like dung so, I carry Jesus—to arrive at black literature, to fret God, as needing his agenda. I have adored a tragic Swan or a leaking Sun Lake, while pondering the Danish culture: such royalty, such dignity, while it would never happen. such gutberries such remorse, to plead,

cry, or bounce back. a bit cautious, in a long parade, while I dear for Christ never would!) such a promise for a sinning monster while yogic compassion frets my bones. sweet maple glossaries or saffron basil while I haven’t a clue of what that means! such creativity, such a dear daughter, while I can’t hate but Lord Knows I try! (if I might speak plainly, such to assert a miracle, while feeling

you three is so gut-wrenching): eyes tingle bombs are ridiculous while I hit a floor, all alone, screaming beneath my breath: such dear intensity as to leave, or forfeit, or relinquish my soul. upon an oatmeal cookie, manipulating interior, while baking peaches. the maniac drizzle or a man so disgusted while living beauty became a priority. (I sense too much, this hypersensitive man,

while googling such squalor such sand-built failures so dislodged as fretting this sanctity. those slums or slumlords where roaches sleep close or rodents chuckle while something to sin feels good.) serenity woes or un-literate prose where a mother both hates & loves her son. (this deceitful thief those deceitful eyes while a man has dreams about a disgusting angel. if but to confess, all those valves so vetted to self but still averted: a myth in Ireland or a gut in tendencies while dying learned to feel contentment!)         

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