Friday, December 24, 2021

Monsoon

 

close the curtain. I don’t need others seeing—longer hallways, many unclean rooms, an overflowing mop bucket. I want to feel enveloped—in sensory darkness, taking my place, would they if they could?

atop a table sits a coin, I keep flipping it, the same way, with heads up, I get the same answer each time; insanity!

a woman told a man: “I know you so well, I hate the knowingness.”

over a plate of sardines, with a loaf of bread, the craft of the immature craft, sprung into visual.

I can’t say much—a soul too much—watching, absorbing, saying too much.

I roll dice, made of woodcuts, I used to obsess over dice. so many tiles, sprawled out before traffic, I’m making a boat, made of tiles: trampled, congested, hibernating tiles.

at the beach, I see an island, it’s adorable—the grass is greener, moist, much care invested in it—the life, said inside, would I give it, if I could? I don’t have an answer.

I have a predilection for most anything. so great the requirement for myself. I might be projecting something particular to me, or ‘our kind,’ with florets of pain.

on a sleigh, maybe, smiling, maybe, melancholic, maybe?

I never experienced it, until it came. to look at self intensely. to stream into a vision. to analyze one’s flesh. it seemed eerie. I addressed the issue swiftly.

no one knows that feeling!

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