Tuesday, February 15, 2022

I Know What Love Ought To Be

 

I know what love isn’t, as it dispels itself;

fashion is blight, souls rabid, sex

unfinished.

Ideograms. Grandfather’s symbols.

Graphs.

Grimacing excitement.

I know what love isn’t, as it dispels itself;

isolation, Bold & The Beautiful,

socialites.

I know what love is, respelled color, ink at

the tips of our fingers.

Like a caretaker, attending in a hospice,

the rage of going unnaturally. Pink gums.

Romantic disgusts. Intimate distrusts.

I know what love is, expelled from me,

closer than arteries to me, uncertain,

complete, and dying.

I loathe you: too sexy, too perfect, too much

ink; to spell you, to trauma out, Days of Our

Lives.

I know what love isn’t, as it dispels itself:

I know what love is, respelled color, ink at

the tips of our fingers.

The piston mind, alligator hunger,

progression, the running from inevitability—

the moment, eyes filled, needing a Xanax.

I know what love ought to be:

doctoral/orgasmic eyes;

charming unpleasantries;

winking at incompatibilities—

made tremendous, clocks clicking, last rites.

Sonnet IV

    If I was Pablo in a feeling, I would assert love, I would cry fever—one begonia, three dreams.  If I was Neruda in my emotion, I would e...