Wednesday, November 27, 2019

Breaking Closet Seesaws


It drips at our porch and raccoon rancid hits the airwaves while hummingbirds are hovering for shelter; a daughter comes to mind a delicate saucy rose or something incredibly forceful. I wouldn’t know for time this blur in our region this pelting invisibility; so filched by trauma so alarmed by terror at softer sweeter music; to love by sight, a deliberate enterprise, but sight unfelt a scream into exospheres. Rain touches gently. The moon is cryptic. And something soothes instincts. Our terrible trombone our tragic trumpet our transient treacheries; if but a glimpse to swelter politely while heading so swiftly—those guillotines those welted pinholes or this body becoming liquids; as accursed mystics at our cultic galleries where psychs are standing quite highly; more importantly, this film in our horizon, those blue jays as humans, or something too ridiculous to reason through. Our shadows gunning at shadows. Our shadows becoming centaurs; or wrapped so neatly indebted to features. This man with dreams, this dread by screams, and too determined to appreciate failure: this fluid creature, this favorite friend, so cavalier, so chaotic—to chance piano this galaxy those pensive discourses so recharged and ready to combat existence; this filed of robots, those raging umbrellas, our daughters accused of assembling reality; to die forever and live as part-timers so thrown so indelicate and racing to build bridges.

I developed distractions dangling by wires so welted and webbed by travesty. I saw something blocking perception, this essence by protection, where the mind filters through those properties. Such religious theories if but to suffer while the humble shall inherit the kingdom; those internal lakes those lurid circumstances while maneuvering through mad islands; this crackling levy those dams bleeding, plus, our evidence conflicting with excuses; this pleasure while intoxicated or this monster going through spells or something a mixture of the two; akin to shadow puppets so rich by devotion to speak and notice our missing voices; such powerful affection, such a dear affliction, where one sympathizes with something that hurts; this psychology in humans this tender taste while troubled by hells and haven disjunction. I watched a pillar so proud with silence or loud enough to worry the neighbors.

—but yours might be soothing a crush upon dear life filled with academic fever; a complete rapture, devoid of worry, while relishing for the new sun; that old machine those desired rays at sentiment beauty and grays; a welcoming heart for an overt home where realities are pleasant and secure; this zeal for adventure those family outings, plus, a radiant halo—

Intuition says it’s both.

—where days are as they come sensing particular rain addressed in unspoken behaviors; so dear to life and so resilient while resilience should never become elastic; our feelings so at battle our understandings so at war while both indebted to our future outcomes; this picture we envision those outstanding personalities while a Swan is rereading bridal catalogs; to lave our lava, or to rearrange our emotions, where a sibling is sheer delight; something to zip with someone to endure with and someone to protect; but an unveiled summit but a spectacular acme at the apex of our persistence—           

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