Thursday, November 21, 2019

Ambiguous Existence (Revised)


It becomes attraction where irony is born but destiny is fire; this field-vest those ancient conundrums at something near home; our battles cleaving to memories our experiences dictating behaviors or our souls needing insistence; but this beast in men but this feast in women as these two meet and love and become kamikazes; such ruthless debates such argumentative disobedience where both are filmed and captured and disproportionately enlove; this fire in charms this cascade in rivers or this bower in sinning; to imagine dictates or to resolve something unstable while sex and regiments seem so inappropriate; to look at innocence this essence in behavior where one is acting upon instincts; or related souls where ladders seem itchy and desire might carry a curse. I love like winning this wonderful creature at ruins to learn for Love is human; this plank to spirit this sieve to guts so threshed and uttered and regrouping; those omens giggling as a man runs from hells expecting to meet something purer; those darling sinews this elastic matrix or something so galaxy it erupts upon impact; our dear dynamic if but to destroy authenticity where, and though it angers, it appears genuine incite; to impugn everything as never to settle upon anything if but this bell wrapped in sugarplums; our pomegranate excuses our telephones ringing or a hunch so engrained one wonders if it’s self-communication; our lights fretting survival where a man studies her soul while guilty for something she desires; this fragrant animal this holy Eden or something too reckless to admit; our hells as comforters our sainted alienation where combat becomes something dying; released from self, running with crocodiles at caimans and drastic deaths too invisible for one needing—this wound and welting this pond and subversion while never a sight so radical; our foolish arcs as something accursed and freedom we never understood.

I un-change into attire and leap into heartache or silence and concentration into a mind-zone; so alert we dance and we see it lightly for we desire ecliptic vice; a person to claim us a person to swear by us while we portray something seemingly anti-angelic; but to something scaring our souls and best to something losing grace or best to something artificial; our years with immediate cries raging sublime at estrogen and palaces; to lose a crucial component to feel mortality as becoming too resolved to claim clarity; but holy gravel as needing something relished as creatures moved by something like fire; or soul boulders debating by inception those gates as fated too high to meter clearance; this man needing porridge or this grace seeming too eerie while one would sell us ambiguity.

I often fly as elusive by ransomed-pain where something feels unsure—but Love is at annoyance and curt friend-dice or immortal activations; to need a certain class but so much to earn a certain class where one enters support at an unclear temperature; this fuse in us at this reality at some level where we dine and desire extraordinary; as wanting and needing so inclined to be holy and voiced for needing captivation; this beauty flame this bodily river while realizing something is fey; while treated as we die others this rain uprooting our minds where we desire something most aren’t sinning to give; this empty glass to scold our dying so interior to reward our silence while favor seems so distinct.

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