it
becomes beauty of its death. it becomes certain beliefs. where dying a little
is required. I was lost in sunsets or kneeling at beaches or seeing anger as it
might manifest. by flame of sky lights, by rapture of its chandelier, or terror
of its hourglass. a tussock for its deceased a fire for its hut a rut might
last a dozen years. something sweet turned vinegar something salty lost its
earth or something appealing became too rough. such alleluia in you,
such metaphysics in another, such raw liquor in me. to die like living
to campout near a furnace to afire like losing; an outburst a cagey feeling or
to speak something might hurt its receiver. as creatures at war, while trying
some point, while to expect a little resistance. or a woman, to mash his
brains, where she never expected adoration. as many desire pains, for pain becomes
love, while I might make a false claim. if but our bodies as writhing in cement
where stuck for centuries in glue. by sacrifice of its child, mother’s only
beloved, with never a thought to repercussions. such social welfare such
geometry made physical while so raptured into invisibility. (so much a face a
figure a curse into everything I need; so lost so much courage as to have what I
need; upon a petal, into a cloud, wild ass blueberries; those forces where it
happened such his majesty another’s remorse.) by literature to escape by therapeutic
projection to escape or so solemn into a mistake; to bend corners to try
mindfulness as some creature without feelings; to become business our bodies
giggling where some remnant approaches its Israel in me. a man last, a human
first as second a mystic. so ravished in sin so much a thought while they put
this in me. I understood mechanics, I played violin, it was so uncomfortable. I
was washed is misery. I was given a ruler. they demanded I act normal. such
furious fire such galactic gauges where normal means—I compliment you. but
Anger was beauty or ropes were snug as a woman gasped her immortal breath. (a
man must die or flourish as both are apropos; such rites to love her such
enduring to keep her while many are so ecliptic.)
