such
upon a hammock, seated rhythmic-like, a few disturbing ants. I see a mound
those dirt volcanoes where it’s easy to disappear. (the world seems unsafe or
reality is bias or I have a damaging flaw; to identify with a mat or to pet a
stray pit-bull with senses becoming agitated.) many fend for a cause as souls
needing meaning while many seclude producing a fever. a portrait of a settee or
a raggedy beanbag or carpet removed within; to ask about intention to learn for
ten years—of academia, to agree with warning signs. I saw a kite as I walked
the park, I tossed a clump of grass. it seems like dancing or palming shrubberies
or identifying different flowers. I saw something, a younger soul, hugging a
Retriever. I smiled inside as I trekked inside, life seems so unique by prima
facie. (days blur into months. a woman works a manuscript. she’s filled
with determination.) jamesias are in bloom, or waterweeds are rapid, as we
create watchwords for our souls. a lady is mad at me, or interested in my
future, or unveiled deliberately; another reads, she analyzes, she disagrees;
in other quarters, I submitted a chapbook, it shall be reviewed. (such
music-symbols as chess is on its ceiling, or a young prodigy; so inside of self,
such a ways from self, to understanding self—the elusive chameleon, or some
riddle in its joys, something hurting its controller.) I received a book. it
highlights upcoming poets. she said, “Why aren’t you in there?” such ease in
me, or such doom in color, or such privilege for an allotted few. (so, I wrote
poems. I separated documents. I’m hoping on a chapbook. if to edit by mind or
to reread every line, or to submit, as to find an error. it becomes dual, as we
duel for recognition, in a city with one bullet.) the waltz for ballet, or a
ballad for lies, or enmeshed too serenely to divest: our cherries with shakes,
our blueberries as snacks, or our souls disagreeing with polemics. too tender
to win, or too vicious to trust, or too uneasy to build friendships. (some
might laugh, they might feel shocked, but some speak or befriend or come close
with a purpose to help.)
