Friday, February 21, 2020

Henna & Glenn


“What brings you here?”
“I just lost, my Love.”
“I’m sorry to hear that.”
“Why are you sorry?”
“I can see pain.”
“My name is Glenn, and yours?”
“My name is Henna.”

It was late into a manic spell. I was walking up Melrose headed to the Beverly Center. And at one of those random spaces, I met Henna.

She said it quickly, upon meeting eye-contact, “You seem alive.”
I was sudden into a moment, but hell was a neighbor, I had just lost my family.

I responded with zeal, “I’m going through a daze.”

“Would you like to sit down?” Henna asked.

I saw redeeming features. Such pure gravity. Such matches and being kids and mother isn’t home. So, I obliged.

We were well into our miseries. But it didn’t matter. Because mania makes everything beautiful. A thin line becomes embroidery. A sky is so close. And negation is pure enemy.

“Are you thirsty,” she said. I paused. Something was registering. But it took time to validate.
“Yes,” I said. Over sweet juice, we became sweet persons. She said, “I don’t usually speak to strangers.” I paused again. and then spoke, “I think it’s harmless, at times.” We smiled.

“I’m headed to the Beverly Center. Would you like to come?” “In more ways than one,” she said. “But let’s talk.”

I asked about this person. As it turns out it was her girlfriend, and they always break up and get back together again. I was clarity and poker-faced and I realized it in her gaze. I cheered up. I asked if she wanted to call the girlfriend and make up early. She grimaced, and said, “let her sweat.”

She wanted my story. I was reluctant. But I finally gave in. “My story is quite simple: I took an ecstasy pill, raised my voice, and took the food out of the freezer.” She laughed. And I continued. “There is more, but this sets the tone.” “Where is your lady,” she asked. I said, “she is with the baby, and probably a friend.” “What type of friend,” she asked. “An intimate friend,” I said. “Are you angry,” she asked. “I’m good and messed over,” I said.

We walked, looking and touching and laughing and such banter or curse or voice and knowing it could if we would but time would place us back to the one, we chase.
Time was slipping into us.  We were feathers or wings or song with cadence.

Mania is forbidden. But mania is excitement. While anything in mania is a false impression. One yearns for that secluded person. But that person is tucked away. We awaken looking for that person. But while mania lives, the gift is eternity, and this delusion is, it will never live again.

Henna interrupted my prose. “What’s so interesting in there?” she asked. “I was thinking of this moment, or these distractions, while needing for something unbelievable” I said.

Henna got closer. I could feel heat-pressure. And we kissed. We were slow into it, as if standing on stage, and then it intensified, where electricity was rapid falls.

She nudged me. She did it again. And then she said, “You aren’t asking!” I was lost for a second, mania does this, but I was coming into hypomania. I responded, “Should we get a space, if but for tonight, so we can die tomorrow?”

Her eyes were warm. Her texture became flushed. And she said, “I live up the street and up the block.”

We mused upon flowers, she knew each one: prince’s feathers, alyssums, floss flowers, cornflowers, monardas and others. We arrived at this mahogany house. The front was haven-like. The inside was soft decoration. Upon entering, Henna dropped her purse, gripped my jacket, and lead us into our sin.

We tugged and fell and undressed and chuckled. We felt and moved and played and moaned. I grabbed and died. She lived and ached. Such gyration. Such fluidity. Such cries and laughs, as if a third-year anniversary—such intimate spaces such intimate tasting. To bite and run. To filter and unveil. It was hypomania. It was not real. But it was forming magnetism; and we worship magnetism; this frame in visitation this pain in wandering while sitting and looking at something that couldn’t be romance.

We sat quietly, such intrusive silence, and then I spoke: “Are you alright?” She was filled with emotion. Such a loss and then a craving and now this stranger. She opened up: “I’m a wreck. My mind is everywhere. And here I sit with something that feels right.”          

Like deep addiction, or skies that speak, or pain speaking to its lover, I tried to respond: “We have touched, something has blossomed, into this room of mirrors.” Henna was processing, our feelings were webbing, her eyes were wet.

“I know it doesn’t last. And nothing unlocks what was meant to die,” she said.   



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