the
feeling is unborn or dormant where buds don’t blossom. the pond is dry. we see
frogs. we hear city lights. such a vanished presence, if to give to hearts,
while measures seem ineffective. by patient souls to retrieve something hoped
for while many try to vitiate or abolish faith. I can’t receive in order to
live I must give in order by humanity.
(I sought essence even ousia if but to value something solicited;
by inlet soul or sunlit ambition where reality was dependent.) I wrung emotion
so unsung by emotion to live, eat or pray emotion. so dear to me so rough on me
while we’re both responsible. such years in religion such silence resonating
religion or cured so falsely through religion. (our towerman our empty streets
as long as I stay by religion.) I drift to a moment, where she asked a question,
where she shrugged at its answer; or to sudden a spark or to mystify a room or
to spray linguistics. if hailed as persistence, or receiving deference, would a
man accrue something human? the lilt of its features or dynamite below its
surface or that man estranged from normality. if but stricken by pain, as a
woman spoke to a tree, while she waited for its answer; or a man screaming
about Jesus, even a threat to himself, as he managed to stop traffic on
Wilshire: arms flailing or hands wailing, as legs or torso demanded their
determined crucifixion. I tried to ignore it. but it cut gristle. while the
passers were struck by fear. such a primitive locator or a sudden upheaval or
something once alive its difficult to exist: those strange eyes those carrying
sentences while one must live in absence. such false structure such a fragile
reality where anything might be taken. by idol is meant perception. by totem is
meant our categories. or by noetic one means properties in our brains. such
particle telepathy so subtle as an afterthought to mistaken a coincidence or
dismiss familiar sequences. but sweet/sour candy such as seen to regard it as
nonconsequential. our otic lectures or emotional tugs where we see something
unscrewing itself: those delicate palms, their deeper requirements, while one
might let go to embrace happiness.
