Saturday, October 26, 2019

So Holy So Bestial & So Conflicted

cloud haven skies or radiant black sorrow our nights pitched in crucifixions; so white and so pure or so dark and so sure or such middle existence poignant and uncertain; those sexual feminists those sensual womanists or seduction those eyes those features; to cry but three tears while acclaimed as unnormal and pitted for thrown while deception is clarified; this creature in Germany or this vixen in France while every woman visits California; those red carpet appetites and always so glamorous and always so altered; this essence in rites those actors dying if but one scene too close for humanity; at a fragrant figure and fullness with grace while no-one is ever satisfied; but Love is statuesque and Love is Junoesque and Love is picturesque—such a vandal or villain such a rude personality but ever so humble with patience; our purest portraits such daring framework and such an aesthetic derrière—those risqué comments or cleavage meant for artists or full blossomed lips meant for caresses; such flowing mare waves and so deadly with smarts as most know a man’s brains—those daring suggestions as a soul tries but fails or nights are laughter-cries and wailings; never an eye for others or so consumed by our passion where it kills and destroys something harboring its hostilities; looking at porcelain flesh confused by holy flesh or dominated by this need to feature brilliance—those mahogany essences those holy mountains if but our reasoning cemented in abstracts; to die in closure to realize such freedom where chemistry struck my island—as purely unsavory or purely holy or something gazing into characteristics and misdirection; such a deliberate actress acute and dismissive our crude and slanted and such a holy creature; those tragic lanes nor those deep emotions where we must journey this village of demons; our tragedy bliss our bodily memorization so fueled or so close where she dies to offset stability; this hostage in brains this kidnapped agenda or this payment for seduction; to love is but a title where we assess attributes while deep affection enumerates its pillars; to chance in those feelings to arise in your essence to become so much more in your horizon; at sitting dimensions so involved in mind-matter where your presence becomes passion; this field of lullabies this infant’s crib or this Otherness reaching its exhaustion.

it listens to itself it becomes its nature and it dies time and again; each death as it moves forward our souls unlatched our minds and guts fevered hysterically; such turquoise flesh such radiant energies those freshets and glens those avenues and valleys or this city star too beautiful to claim; our forced participation our sterilized sex or something so inviting we call it exclusivity; as the most holy we have encountered as the most bestial we have met or so unclear how you have ruined me; this bouncing Ecclesiastes this innate Lamentations or conflicted for running but so damn appealing; this fist fight with ghosts this laughter in our mirrors while looking at lady love; interior church so mystic the thought or traditional leadership and configurated beliefs.

it must be experienced in this fair war where adoration seems segue; to sense a monster to council self or to ignore as much while something intuitive is groaning; our curse as powerful agents our screams as defeated agents while often we lose something to acknowledge its meaning; either deep treacherous loses or meaningless perpetual truths in this vexed and underhanded gumbo; but Love seemed holy as this is but a part of something complex and distinct; so much to having this ritual and so much to falling like grapes or so much to love.     

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