Monday, May 30, 2016

Internal Maze

We spin through cycles, afflicted with chaos, as grounded as two squirrels.

It’s difficult to manage insanity, bred through clarities, to miss it when it’s gone.

I filtered a fancy, to realize dominions, as suffering without tugging. It’s deep enchantment, as knowing aloneness, but prayed for by secrets. I fathom qualities, to imbue a swan, as thankful for a cygnet. It mustn’t be pain, this cultic interview, where every answer is wrong. We manufacture memories, for the sake of healing, as restructuring illusions. We die through life, as life through death, as the kef of anxieties; to hold but one smile, to have but one grain, to live a heartbeat as centered; for I’m falling softly, as rising gravely, addicted to the angst of faith. I know for fires, this inner séance, our outward scars. It must be tears, as one so beautiful, to pursue such chaos; where distance is law, the law of distance, webbed as a tension of treasures. We must be seen, as appreciated deeply, our hands reaching through cities.

I love a vision, this confusing maze, a woman as a mystery; where hell negotiates, as to assist heaven, as to mold preachers. It’s the deepest riddle, to fathom Job, as one weary of repenting prematurely; for this is chaos, to channel fear, where fear is rendered as appropriate.

I still find her, buried in concentration, this internal power; to love but a season, as spread so thinly, to wish for something permanent. There must be joy, this sudden feeling, as to request its presence; else delusion, this internal feud, this mental illusion. 

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