those unspoken
cues such brown diaries too sure it gets better. by green-turquoise ocean or
ferrets playing chase or dying becoming solidity: pieces of failure or
fragments of winning while unrealized; to ponder life to have existence or soft
into caricatures. it might be you so dear to soul while we fret over treasures.
sweet eyelashes or beige gloves or sudden a determined opinion. to have some
person, at such a disjunct reality, nonetheless, to probe that space behind
consciousness: lost forever unfound or running deserts to die looking for what
we took. “Just adore me, despite anything sensible, where I might pity you.” so
concerned in that such helium to drown while oxygen is so low. I have never
felt it as others feel it—either more to feel it or less to feel it or so
comfortable in midst of observation. (I wanted a woman. I understood imposed
losing. where a man defeats his ambition. by stark silver or tan white as days
crucify legacy; while skies judge clouds, or clouds judge earth or stars judge
planets—it becomes what we assert, everyone is better than everyone else!) so
hectic in you. it’s like hell in you. while knowing it matters nothing to you.
(too sweet in spaces seated like power so fierce in Clarks.) the cave is gentle
its scent wafts, I’m faced by mind-dragons; such a cure for losses such a run
into whiteness while I haven’t seen but a woman: social graces, deep dignity, so
aloof to being captured: a husband a son a daughter. such sickness in a poet,
while one should skip further, if but to find newness of manipulation; as
asking for permission while it seems timid in such a way it builds trust. to
feel comfort to die a smidgen while alive a begonia in bushes. our terrible
confrontation our works in fires while angry it turned away while winning. the
fury of the professor the existence of the tiger while getting a straight
answer is often difficult. but life seemed together, as to get into that space,
where nothing is faithful, but he never knew. (to ask while waltzing, such pain
in its risk, while assessed for weakness!)
