independently dependent. inverted
compliments. barbeque and cauliflower.
frustrated kindness. how to respond? we
just feel discomfort.
language is phraseology,
like physiognomy is experience, like disease is indicative. sweet grandiosity,
a person’s prudence, leading or receding into displeasure. an existential man,
or a colored man, or a smart man—raw muddy waters, oil mills rupturing, no one
is saying much. a Doberman is watching. we might be apprehensive. she is nice.
I find no escape—those
walls are encrypting—I grapple, grope, and greet. sullen joys. the religious
irreligious. sacred unholiness. or by far an aesthetic fire, secluded into
deceit, as buried in predicament. the suffering woman the ungracious man so
born to arrive so unsteady. built to win, designed to struggle, winning means
deliberate isolation. or giving until it churns, destroyed before adolescence,
carrying all of one’s childhood—no clarity no clearance no courage. so
daunting, but what to expect from a philosophic cynic. I have identity in nonacceptance
while it still aches with repudiation. a few words. a classification. many are
disgruntle concerning the message.
spiritual
secularism. atheistic tenets. agnostic faith.
by tradition to
suffer. by rites to psych one’s brains.
soft hardness in a
square balloon at a kite—it couldn’t glide or float or be purchased.
I was not
concerned. it started to bother me. most of us are going through someone’s else’s
hunches, their centerpieces, their nonsensical—it must be like my comforts.
some are designed to battle, to open fences, to pet the gnarms. to watch,
determine, even fret. to worry to be concerned to deal with aggravation. many
need cushion or preferability, I might say this for most people.
