so mad at lies so
specific into convo while aloof filled with compassion. a night to drift a day
to return fraught by grandiosity. divorced from self always jasper as dying to
be alone. some wig some persona while thieves have claimed our monuments. but a
jingle to green eyes or a feeling bleeding greatness while so conceived
evidence means so little. father, a bad man, father never understood, but
father knows mother. a gated horizon or chasing a star with a midday yearning.
a sip for practice a sip for luck a sip just because. so vacuumed so distant, with
a lover ten kilometers running. such a pendulum such a scar while I met
something in me: he lies awake, he speaks in dreams, he judges quickly into a
storm. so positive so energized while most have a difficult mission. the
daunting journey the backwoods as static where much flexibility spills into
discomfort. to get at illness, into a gut, a real soul feels like it’s
churning.
I was a weird soul,
always watching, with something speaking symbols. I was a weird soul, hanging
with mother, she took many breaks. I was a lost soul, headed for a trail, or
raging into a room. I’ve met many, too decent to ignore, too aloof to intrude.
something’s in me some energy while qualification is self-sacrifice. we check
in we analyze it was reaching to trespass. a gutty soul a muddy soul while
rinsed at baptism. a priest at the séance a miracle at the brains, a feather in
his pocket. a ring in a stump a trefoil in a patch a delivery too early. but a
decent memory while eating ribs so confused about all the yelling. a noisy
closet a chair for patients a teacher so roughly.
I close-in a
shaded self a forward on disorder while perception points as arising in
backyards. a fuse in self a driven machine where thinking seems correct. so aloof
as from being wrong but a problem only in me. so jejune so trite so difficult
to get through. a man at his loses as losing big where most have bypassed his
grave. a man as next of kin a woman as sultry or oceans as wavy. to die forever
while feeling awakened with an audience knowing my destiny.
