we
scramble dialogue or scribble apologies the room is louder. I gaze over a
mountain inside’s an avalanche while soft suffering isn’t sufficient. pure
needs a wanted savior if to hear exoneration. eyes watch as darkness falls but
many can’t see. so little in sight so wild with suppression we examine our
pathologies. sweet trance music a thump a giant an ache; so long Despair
but Despair runs back, I feel our ecstasy. I was so enlove it felt
crystalized it felt like methamphetamines. maybe a bag a bag of mushrooms to
gain more insight; or maybe sober striving desperately with Kierkegaard in my
favor. or maybe rereading Malcolm if but to re-soul if but to tile the kitchen.
a sink rattles a snake is in it, I approach with my facemask. we meet souls some are genuine so put
together; an arc inside something kinetic or a flare for kinesics—such telepathy
to ask concerning intuition, such knowing without reason—a flower like us a
feeling like that, it becomes raw fever. maybe a few lies while an ethicist
where it really got inward. so torn like tied to horses where a madman says the
word. or someone never a story never a lie while truth isn’t terrific. a failed
negotiation a child with skies or so close it aches softly. as to gaze gently feeling ashamed to
buckle in a person’s arms. one says it’s uneasy, another says it meant nothing,
where another says something euphemistic. I re-rolled a cigarette, with a glass
of sun-right, aside an oak tree. I rode the vineyard I vexed myself I plunged
into an abyss. I’ve channeled Camus, or become an Invisible Man, or
asked Why The Caged Bird Sings. so cured in countenance with heaven
reigning while alone staring into spaces. so hurt so often while trying to
never give up. to live or seclude, to reap or complain, while most of us judge
from an armchair. fierce vengeance where it confines souls such sweeter
insanities—
an
itchy tongue a failed alliance where he might smile; to sense destruction while
we can’t win our winds taste differently. a book of ashes an urn watching an
elephant leaking.
