I admired
her body, brains, & burials; as created villains holding peace to become a
sophisticated monster. if love is sweet or disparaging is low, we might become
intractable. so difficult to touch so rough around people while lively like
cocaine. I need you or I want you, one is more intense than the other. so huge
in my heart so dependent on love as a creature dispensing passion. a cupcake
one candle or too much frosting. a cypress or myrtle tree, an oaken grudge or
gangly pride at a hill in Palm Springs. too much to say it, or so much to show
it, while I want to tell you. if but this feeling as holding our hands where we
live like phantoms; some appearance in caves such petroglyph insanity where I held
a turquoise symbol; a part of earth or jade blue as time invents heroines. so
much to fight for such feral flights at some place saying, “I’m enlove!”
she knows as some scent so
encouraged to do wrongness. so free to fly such flitting to skid or success in
its bloodiest honesty.
I was looking at a person I was
admiring her personhood but we were of different cultures. with her own it was
commonplace, but with us she was a goddess. as feeling a certain way, or
escaping mediocrity, but never full consuming unto death romance.
we treat people like shit, we expect
something grand, and it usually works. when faced by one, in which it doesn’t
chime, we call that person a fucking problem. see sickness or drown in
mistreatment while one swears against being maladaptive.
but she was different a bit anal
while trying hands at goodness. a guy’s pride, when they laugh, when they play.
to marry like forgiveness, to have children, to buy homes.
I admired her body her sin her
misprints. to tell you, hoping love, while we regret each other. by failing
plight by dear resurrection so neat at being animalistic. so quiet a tornado so
waterless a tsunami at an internal avalanche. not a word near me, not a ploy in
me, I just needed you … like a fire to oxygen, or sugar to a donut, or pain to
a survivor.
