Thursday, May 16, 2019

Trichotillomania


…unfurl Cleopatra, while aiding little Jenny, for both are snatching patches: such revoked persons, such rejected humans, so silenced, so loud, such deep bloody screams: at fatherly demons, or motherly trespasses, so cursed and adored for smiling: our brows bleeding, our tongues growing spines, so casual with essence: such opulent fun, such burgundy homes, at windows committed to hospitals: this blue shiver, this red dynasty, while Jimmy just committed suicide: our children under pressure, our snuggles mortal reasons, if but a steak boiled in feelings: at cures for seconds, so wrecked, so entrenched, while music seemed unthreaded: such classical literature, peering into Octavia, so Roman, so deceased, so wretched: this plight in details, this woman’s nerves, our scars pleading insanity: so many miles, listening to Caesar, at ships and oarsmen—longing for something destroying our strongholds: while Suzie gouges flesh, and Lenard plucks membranes, so casual about molestation: this grown embodiment, those ribs with vinegar, while true religion protects our foster homes….

I see it dying, this brutality, this kingdom by violence: at torn concerns, such rapid body heat, such trenchant fire: this list of chores, this old harlot friend, while many cannot love: our roots broken, our emotions overly stimulated, where a nine year old is snagging a cigarette: such grown language, such schoolgirl intolerance, while Jesus seems unhurried: so distracted, experiencing urinary tract infections, where mother appears restricted: so many hairs, so many reasons, while purple seems too perfect: this gut, this seven year old mistake, where one becomes a driven machine: so robotic, so uncultured, while oddities seem appropriate: our rehab nation, our addict warriors, while raising a winning battle: (this flippant in-brain, this flippant sky-god, while reality points at both: this trench coat, those tile tears, while a rose grew by horrors: those murderous cities, this maniac detained, this psychopath at waters: our baptized features, our stunted for structured but deceptive psychs: this thin mechanic, as sliced in halves, where we determine those deceits that seem viable: those propositions, this man gunning, this bullet sunk in a nightmare: that fatal blast, as distorted his guts, this wound, this fleeing, this captured sleep-night: to die with passion, to adore a harlot, where women are asking for permission).

…we eat behavior, so dead and grinning, while life is running: built for psychotics, this rare disposition, while adored hells fall incapable: our black science, this Monroe daymare, while thrust’d into quarters: this tiger pendulum, this lion hexagram, or this bobcat telephone: at texts by in-guts, at war with wall-nuts, so cursed, so cured, while psychs are livid with potentiality: this bandage game, this ignorance game, or something a bit too intimate to explain: at river gates, or firehouses, at firebrand and feelings: those remorse islands, this clump of scalp, while Jimmy appeared as an apparition: this eight year old, seated in this den, a pair of cigars and a glass of gin: using pains, struggling over heroin, this red nose, this bloody inkling, while screaming uncontrollably: those boxed rooms, this psych at questions, this room filled with heinous activity: our small bodies, this raging lunatic, this rapid infection: asked for normality, asked for patience, while something needs to ravage a nightmare….


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