Tuesday, January 18, 2022

Taking As You Do

 

we carry each other—burdens, ghosts, flying into resentments.

we’re doing it wrong, because it hurts, we’re doing it sideways.

loving us seemed easy, inconsequential; lately, I’ve noticed

how we love each other: should I notice—the love, the effort,

every grunion? I see how I cater to you. I see how you receive

me. I recognize you demanding of me my habits, expecting

certain rites and rituals—seated, receiving, full of holes and

arrogant inconsistencies—should I notice myself showing

affection? affection should flow unnoticed. I imagine a

scientist suggesting nothing should be automatic, unnoticed.

as of lately, my efforts are with notation, reflecting as I

motion—I realize being a good friend becomes

self-consciousness. in loving you, I am made to feel fretted; in

agonizing, I sense, you don’t sense, nor care, taking as you do.   

PS.

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