Thursday, December 30, 2021

The Genius Is Different

 

She’s nameless, brilliant, I can’t compete. They say the genius is awkward, unsocial. I don’t know, but she acts self-conscious, speaking into herself, watching, she remembers each move she makes. I admire the hurting—there’s a secret to the genius.

 

I daze into skies, leaping in heart, not a peep those days—with penalties for self, a gift in pains, trying harder might be met with longing. I imagine she’s composing: satire, made teleological, at a space inside, made dark, semi-suicidal, reading Sylvia.

 

She’s a machine—destined to flourish, each floret mile is a triumph; her mind is egotistical, her gait is humble, her mind is too much to understand. We try in pleasures—looking at her, sensuous passes, some she entertains, some she devours.

 

I was in awe—I knew something was different, for I have certain a dungeon, in a mountain, near a campfire. Much firebrand, terror underbrush, a side eye—I’m not ready, I fathom more, those banks, those ships, they sail, they never come back.

 

The soul says, “It’s ripe,” the spirit says, “It’s too late.” I might find a life in motion, built upon concrete, withstanding tides, across seas, it happens, we get used to our normality—the excellent thief, the outstanding addict, the life we try to insist upon.

 

She has vanished—somewhere afar, never in a screen, on my island, ever into a dream. She shall love, adore, never settle, yearning for billows; she will sink low, read a poem, turning depression into radiant anger—she will outdo survival.  

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