Wednesday, December 15, 2021

Born Irregular

 

the company of isolation, dragging my knuckles, so crowded by analyzation. to feel inside, to see inside, to float, scud, flit, fly inside. I see a bottle, cocoa liqueur, so wild the denial of self—that furious drill, those furious pits, landing, fretting goodness, theology trying dearly. the fragrance of pity, those rounds with souls, the precious reflection of ancestors. so designed to battle, bicker, burnish some ill-gotten mishap.

but—the graves are flowered, the gothic is resting, the zinnias are singing; sure zest for others, a mental mountain, I keep climbing. an altered person, in altered skin, so many floret responses. taken into circumstances, perception from my corridor, vestibules with decided doors. (to sit there, negotiating inside, thrilled to walk, to chance, to deliver myself; or to listen, closely, never a doubt, passing assessment, pleading the benefit of the doubt for others.) to sit there, fully alert, looking at myself, with no recourse to another position. most never realize the perception in self, of self, generated by self—this is what is perceived. a person walks away from a faux pas, it follows, when present, the faux pas is alive. a man hits his wife, she never forgets, a barrier has been shattered. a wife strays, a husband forgives, it never goes to sleep. many skies ago, many futures churning, from insufferable, to tolerant. so much zeal for horizons, to parachute a friend to comforts, to adore a friend with soul-force. or letting go, it gets so hard, it becomes so easy; so crazy at love, so delicate at arriving, so temperamental with love—so expectant, so decided, so irregular.       

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