Monday, September 6, 2021

We Lease Success

 

so filthy, lost in angels, a thousand on cigars. removed from self, one frank succession, one murky hat—the gangs trying harder, it becomes money, wilding out, like courage is illegal. I spin at it, like Scarlett at it, riding at it. “You like white women?” I haven’t seen color, with loins afire like spark-works. another move, just purchased a nightmare, raiding my countryside. many miles, a cavottas, looking clean as cops. they never knew, wishing death on those afar, plain in a Lexus. I heard father died, I lost imagination, it hurts we never hung out. bleached skin, bleached language, too damn bleached for me. I took a drag, I inhaled, like lungs are young forever. a dirty mentality, a clean conscience, such a contradiction. too many at it, I was shocked, Kristen became what was longing inside.

 

9:09 a.m. too tipsy, been awake all night, talking to an Asian Puerto Rican. I mash out, hit Sunset, like a demon entered his casket. aflame, laughing, wondering if she understood pain. asking questions, like moving questions, at art like I have a damn problem. masked out, glassed out, trash to the curb, out.

 

I can’t say that, as if it’s crazy, I never needed marriage—until she appeared. the aches we endure, those trials we undergo, like Lucy was innocent.

 

our age tripping on pimping, everyone a treasure, I do it to impress a fucking stranger. I mash off, much respect, try not to be disgusted with another man’s success.

 

a new Benz, he was alive, his friend asked to covet more of what sustained him.    

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