we face a dilemma
this web in determined factors, where “choice” is not registered. we have a
proposition: if events are predetermined, and life is a series of events, then one’s
experiences are predetermined, and there is not much one can do about it. this
takes away from options this becomes counterintuitive insomuch as most have an “illusion”
of choices. most realize some decision making, some deliberate avoidances, or
honestly, those components argued internally before actually submitting to
passion. if we accept determined factors, we are suggesting that mistakes are
not reasonable, indiscretion is like prophecy, and a precious still born is
preordained, if not “necessary.” we treadmill a thin reality, where
responsibility is not plausible: repentance, punishment, violations, even molestation
is somehow free of consequence. we immediately get angry, as to first suggest
autonomy is a myth, and in addition to say, suffering of any nature is one
determined, and two, void of retribution. moreover, God is absent. He or She is
“hands off.” where for most that worship, God becomes an indifference, a possible
maniac. this level, this sphere of reasoning can’t fit in a society priding
individuality, an intimate Father, or a longsuffering Mother. we breach “necessary.”
what would prompt this term? it seems incoherent to suggest pain, or even
torture, is necessary. this has long probed our minds: the notion of a loving,
intimate God, as to permit children, our souls, to suffer in such an indetermined
way. it seems indetermined, unless I wrestle with this dear reality: prior to
birth, one decided that I would be hurt, in such a way that I would turn to
Him, a person that is hands off, divorced from my life, expecting full
submission, without a Soul to appeal to.
