Sunday, May 14, 2017
May I Ponder
I felt music, if must I speak, at membrance those sandy eyes; that sable
contour, that able mind, those terrifying secrets; to leap from heights, at
wings a warrior, a son by measures: our melancholia; our losing of self;
sipping from soil our roots. I felt dungeons, while slamming doors, at tears
our psychoses: that wretched credenza; our achy strings; that flute by
treasured sorrow; where monsters bathe, as crazed with armor, seeping into
membranes: our beloved armoires; our memoirs dripping fluids; those days at
paradise—as maladaptive, that tender abandonment, our children playing
hopscotch: that soft melody; those Cajun eyes; that innocence—as treasured curtly,
while envied dearly, at measures to uproot those webs: this existential, as
chiseled by life, while adrift this current of love-ships. If must I speak,
that cocaine trail, our mothers to terrors—as roaming castles, at love by
vagrancies, used as tossed asunder—that spread of armor, those jetted emotions,
that tragedy by tales; to enforce life, that wretched outlook, while some type
of person; as cursed a vessel, if must I speak, that child featured as father:
this travesty, as wanting a lost daughter, as failed its full term: that
resting embryo, as soothing that cry, a kick near infinity: our family’s reign,
as dead to silence, a living room of secrets: that subtle air, as confused by
rifts, a fool smiling at disdain. Oh to cry, peering at insanity, while used
for some type of purpose: that infrequent grin; that deep rupture; this irony
singing by cliffs; while ignored richly, for some type of feeling, while eagles
tug at sensory. If must I speak, those sable eyes, that strength surpassing
cadence—as torn a soul, afflexed with addictions, at ruins this gray horizon;
as broken a seed, to feel such measures, at terrors to have destroyed life. I
want to see mother, that childhood queen, that immutable beauty—as tragic
scales, that whispering imbalance, as coldness thrills melancholia: that rabid
thrill; that seeing through persons; that knowing of self; while afraid of
life, our terms unique, where others are accustomed to rules: that jagged
courage, to defend a child, while at hells to defend self: this need for ruins,
as feeling familiar, unaccustomed to gentleness; that idle pleasure, to run by
deserts, those late nights aside cognac. If must I speak, this day of
ambitions, our cyan stars—as flowers to memories, where tables are plush, our
souls speaking freely—while at patience a charm, where at arms a friend, about
which, those trailing conditions—to ask for normal, searching for rubrics, by
attentions that matriarch. If must I speak, our mornings to absence, our gates
by locks of horrors; but torn a style, as normal a cry, to feel something’s
askew: that inner jukebox, that jazzy dance, that jutted fever; as living immortalis, at such seconds as eternal,
while mourning those long goodbyes; wherewith, are tears, that sitting space,
that colored discourse; as singing wisdom, this life of bone-aches, that shiver
by hearts; to explain silence, that essence of scripture, to monitor by cadence
such stillness; as losing self, while deep at joys, this mixture of
misdirection; where psychs ponder, as jotting notes, while patients leave
afforded to live with self: that trying current, to paddle at angles, sensing a
great white. If must I speak, this lovely legacy, as confused with proprieties:
that standing meanness, unless for charms, at tales reaching for emotions: that
cry that sings, that whiff of manipulation, that person with appeal. If must I
speak, this inner longing, to touch by essence a tender affection; as sung our
Tao, our verbal Taekwondo, our electric Tai Chi: that outer samurai; that inner
ventriloquist; that mental psychologist—to have such wisdom, an emotional
younger, stranded at that first cookie. If must I speak, that feral dream, as
accused of disharmony; where perfect judges, as releasing lives, while
distorted that chiseled reflection; by which, are measures, to alienate life,
where mothers ponder dissonance. I’ll claim this light, affected with love,
where others wonder of truths: this deep contention, to wrestle with
proprieties, while webbed to something tender.
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