grumbling tears, big bag of tobacco,
too much smoking. looking ghostly, fretting interior, more northern than
southern, with roots in Louisiana. made it mental, too hard to become rich,
with cache in heaven—the New Jerusalem; beats bleeding, billiards begging—the goddamn
question: Will life become perfect? a true to leftist junior, implored for
rightness, turned into conscienceness. such a hypocrite—as made to live it—some
neat staircase: ravished early, exposed to elements, watching mechanics in an
abandoned house. decorated by trials, a safe in Mississippi, a river filled
with slaughter, cursed/blessed—with an inheritance; a long genealogy, a bundled
continuity, a metaphysic slant: mother walked in, granny was watching, father
visits in dreams; concrete roses, sky nemesias, walls made of jamesias. rooms
with psychs scribbling in paint, probing impressions, images planted—many deeper
realities, sourced compartments, believing in perfection—maybe earth gods, some
component, playing cellos and violins and piccolos—the mind in its gut,
swimming in terrors, popped one to get there.
escape is a funny word: imagine
what it implies: it sings to something expected: if to receive too much, of a
given reality, one would go crazy. (a strong assertion.)
mind-port, skipping across
pictures, so hypnotized.
Will life become perfect?
it’s possible, maybe true, chasing
something right here—looking for expected properties, certain modalities,
crushing hash, a light giggle at self, seeing the major addiction.
the question implies an answer—a yes
or no answer, the question is fraught with error, expectation, a childlike
nature. either its perfect, or imperfect, as determined, or sourced at its base—with
respects to an energetic spectrum and force. (a strong assertion.)
it’s perception, the existential
Sisyphus—to imply something is cruel—concerning the cycle—harvest sharing crops
with weeds.
some fantastic evilness, some Artifice,
something seeming two dimensional, in one Force.
the mirror shows mimicry,
ambivalence, and imperfect excellence. (a strong assertion—with perfection
creeping along the surface.)
