I
felt this love, so steep this mania, as accused of lunacy; to charm this life,
with adverse words, as to find a lost soul. There’s connection, grounded in
spirit, to future this paradise; as some sort of kinship, to a integral genius,
peeking during sessions; as never to love, for bones were tears, where a
harbinger terrorized the nights; as eyes closed, to avert the hells, where
beauty cried; as something torn, to feel her pressure, to know her favor; this
bent on life, this Cross on souls, as this thing for swans. I felt this love,
so steep this cliff, as born too early;—for such deep thought, as a manuscript
grieves, as time slices blood; to cry her art, as opposed to love, to see for
failure; where distance was law, as to cross this line, as to embarrass Jesus;
but it couldn’t life, to ignore this sequence, where words articulate this
crassness; to feel for purpose, this immortal grain, streaming through Petrarch;
as to convince this joy, of heaven’s lack, as indicative of joy. I couldn’t be
felt, as so gravid this time, to move as a snail; the mauve of love, that
lavender hell, that purple rain; as chained to manics, to see her face, to know
mother’s linage. It was born uncouth, to reckon a thousand poems, as to admit
love to self; this thing of dreams, as it couldn’t be, this thing of dreams; to
chime with gods, as alone the mornings, somewhere deep our Christ’s soul. Oh
this avalanche, to keep it for perfect, as alive the music: the deepest grief,
afraid to utter—the deepest grief; as chartered afield, an office in a cave, a
shaman as a friend; as so alert, to something strained, the art of this woman’s
prayer; for years to dirt, as for days to glory, this feud of fools; as dearly
his night, to ask this question: Are the
skies in favor of death?—to panic this verse, as to forfeit rhyme, that
churn into a pit-bull; to bully fragments, this element of tears—as years
become a locomotive; as driving railroads, as cursing velvet ceilings, as
driving this life; to future events, to render injustice, as to walk into events.
