Friday, September 8, 2017
In Our Kitchen
I see gumbo—an old saint, our lilies by wisdom: I see confusion, this
plethora of obedience, this ambivalent mimicry—our sultry wives, heated with
culture, our eyes camouflaged: this cranky air-vent, that aroma of onions, that
pot of greens: this seasoned sensation, as caged our animals, at lift to appear
a sudden second. [I live malaise,
this uneasy essence, this childhood film: our faces hidden, our emerald
kitchens, our misty moments: this feeling crying, as tearless a mud-pond,
baffled by cadence—this aloof presence, as tugging chandeliers, our carpets
those existential mazes—to see with courage, as infused with loneness, our
mediators spelling our traumas: this surface deepness, to erupt in
breakthroughs, as warring a series of false thoughts: our mental tyranny, our
sullen madness, our medical diagnoses—to hush a petal, caressing gardenias,
that inverted vacation—those English jolts, that Jewish synagogue, those
African Christians—as lives our eeriness, while torturing human proclivities,
as misconstrued with cosmic thunder. I was tugged early; mother cooking; those
immortal chicken wings. We died essence, as blessed to suffer, pictured as
typical characteristics—this family’s jewel, at torments sober, stressing for
rising while flitting through realities: this measured insanity, at rooms his
mind, our post-traumatic duress—this flying possession, as wisdom slanted, to
admire good where bad is present; indeed, our kitchens, our winter crock-pots,
our red beans with rice—our sons and daughters, our percolating malaise, our
nights at bowels of grass; indeed, our cagey repercussions, where death was
devastating, to have as honesty a corral of distrust—this enclosed resonance,
as deemed medical, where openness is prized as normal: our steep extremes, to
manicure our senses, while at piers shifting through personalities]. We tread lakes, this inner toolbox, our
faucets in need of maintenance—that crazy self, those enriched insights, this
cautious gadfly; at tears, his landscape, our inheritance by dysfunction,
while, nonetheless, we perceive nothing: this crazed man, requiring mirrors,
while disturbing complacence: this portable gem, this flagrant mishap, our
years to one emotion—as cried his life, to see increments, this person kayaking
emotions: that flat fullness, this measure of manipulation, this seething
repetition—while others feel, as torn asunder, to lose from self this entrance
into others: that vacuum passion; those intimate embarrassments; that Retriever
at attention—our inner cues, to hear her bark, while at wonders an empty room:
if but to witness, this ghostly self, as lives our reflection—where mothers
live, as fathers oversee, while siblings vie for affections—that penchant
angst, those buns with butter, our stews a reflection but life—that edgy
brokenness, to sense for status, albeit, as, too, broken, those tools become
indispensible—those tiger woes, that cheetah’s bones, that saber our electric
brains; as floating through time, seated at destruction, this conscience
decision to live rightly—as morals would breed, while ethics assist, this
portal as philosophic heartbreaks; indeed, while flooded, pictured as malaise,
stationed at this repetitive grave: those old feelings, as familiar terrain,
this inner knowing of hell’s destination.
[I have this feeling, our souls to fires, as announced his insanity—that
hawkish wind, that kitchen of victuals, this kneading of emotions—to venture
with time, this space of past-lives, where actions form memories—as stunned a
voice, to see confusion, where assessments are contradicted by new behaviors—as
tugging resistance, while experiencing upheavals, at terrors to exclaim
forgiveness: this wealth of passions, as far too soon, while, indeed, a smidgen
late].
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